A positive article about WLS

This is interesting reading!

Rick x

A lovely weekend

Once a month, since January 2009, I attend an East London WLS Support Group which I and a friend set up.

This months group was in Walthamstow and boy what a huge turn out - Cost Coffee must have been rubbing their hands together! It was good to see all my friends and their changing body sizes. It's reassuring when people you don't often see, can see that you are changing even if you feel you aren't. We were gossiping until 6ish and I got back to Aldershot around 8pm.

That evening my brother and his chick and I went to the local fag bar and after a few mouthfuls of wine I was pissed!!! I boogied until 2am and then, a little worse for wear, came home. It was fun!

The downside of Rapid Weight Loss

Well, I seem to have plateaued at the moment with my weight just over 15stone.

I have shedloads of excess skin mainly on my tummy, back, above my cock and my butt. It really gets me down as I still think I look fat and when looking at myself in the mirror butt naked, I look awful.

Being gay and appearing this way is awful too. I thought that losing all this weight would have all these cute gay guys falling at my knees; how wrong I was. I've had a bit of attention in some of the gay bars but not that much. It draws me to the conclusion that I was correct in my assumption that I will NEVER meet anyone in gay places as the MAJORITY of guys who go here are pretentious body fascists. Grrrrr.

I will, hopefully, get funding from my PCT for plastic surgery and wonder once I have all my excess skin removed whether I will feel differently about the gay scene and, most importantly, about myself.

I have joined a different gay social networking website and am hoping to meet like-minded non-pretentious guys from there!

Stay tuned!!

A night out with the gays!!

Since my rapid weight-loss I have grown in confidence in some ways.

I have been to London a few times on my own to go shopping and ventured into a few gay bars!

This time last year I would NEVER EVER go since, I am fat and ugly init.

Now tonight my brother cannot make it to accompany me to the local gay bar in Aldershot - The Lord Campbell - so I may venture there on my own. I went there last Saturday and it was pretty empty but the people there were real friendly. The other option is to go to Guildford and the gay bar there is called Scrumptious - I went there once before and it was pretty empty too. It looks like local fags go to London which I cannot afford at the moment.

Rick xx

My new addiction!!

I am so addicted to Costa Coffee, with my drink of choice being a large hot chocolate - but Fuck me there are 260 Calories in each one I drink!!! Grrrr.

Never mind.

My little treat, init!

New Pictures

Here's some new skinny pictures of myself taken at London Gay Pride on the 5th July 2009!

On the road to recovery

Hey guys,

It's been a while since I updated this blog mainly due to life stressors - mum passed away suddenly (as you may know) and I ended up having a nervous breakdown. I have up and left London and am now living with my brothers in Aldershot in Hampshire.

I'm on the road to recovery now and my weight loss seems to have kick started again - I am down to 15st 4lbs and loving the choice of clothes that I can buy "off the peg". My clothes buying has been pretty wild and I need to calm myself down!

I am a 34"/36" waist and gone down to a size 13 shoe size (was size 14/15).

The main battle at the moment is with my psyche. I still see myself as a fat fucker and although I am not and it's all "in my head", I am finding it VERY difficult to change my view on myself.

I have shedloads of excess skin which I know will eventually get sorted out, but it does get me down whereby I am buying clothes which are a little baggy to hide it from people.

I am having CBT at the Homerton which is going really well with my next session on the 2nd September.